july 18, 2002-- the band just left. Things are going well . Things are also hard. What is important isn't necessarily what you want. Its hard to pass up what you want for what is important. . What is home? I guess home is the people around you. I am home right now. "Kid got the handshake- kid make the earth quake and the dream lets me down...you shake a storm up-I'll turn the porn up- I'm cool when you're around"

june 20,2002 -- my friend Jack Pierson came down to visit and take pictures of the band. We all had a good time hanging out. I'll post some pics later this week.Working on a new song. Going to go to the beach to chill for a few days.

june 14, 2002-- 3:00 am-- the band came over-- things unraveled as the night progressed- at least on my end. Everything I'm writing about is wrapped up in the band. All of my usual cock attitude has lost its way lately-and I'm into it.

june 9,2002--writing a new song called "My Side".

june 7,2002--did a mix of "I'll do what I can..." because its based only everything I recorded with Pat on Sat. it has a dope vibe and a realness I haven't hit before.-- we're learning it as a band and we'll do a version like that as well. Its 4:00 am.--

june 6,2002--4:35 AM-- hung out with John tonight- I've known John for over 10 years now. He asked me questions about the new song. He hadn't noticed much lately. I filled him. He's a close friend but I still felt awkward. I'd prefer not talking about it.

june 2,2002--3:30 am-- worked on music with Pat tonight. He just left- we wrote a new song called "I'll Do What I Can Not To Touch You"..I'll quit this song- I love my band- I love that boy- I love the money...I'm high again- I don't want out- I want into - what makes you funny....

may 29,2002--worked on a mix of "Waiting on you" and "Cabaret" remix.ok. Feel good now.

may 28,2002- it is impossible to figure out why you see some people a certain way and others another way. Why do I speed to one person- and everyone else seems pale. I don't think I've ever really known anyone. I need to get away from everyone for a while.

may 27,2002-- I had to testify today in John's divorce mess. This blogger was actually used as a reference to things that have happened. I was flattered. Most of what I write here is clouded by my own perceptions-- which lately have been at best-- worn. I've been beat up by my own wants - so its been hard to have an objective view of anything. I was amused thinking that Kerry's legal team would read this- especially the darker parts. As true as this blogger is to me - It also is at its heart more about writing then anything else- in the same way that a songs is just a song.Sometimes I write a song and and I know someone close to me assumes it is about them. A song can never be more than it is-- as much as I would hope it could be.

may 25,2002-- today we played at the HFStival here in dc-- it was a long day - but a good time was had. We met a couple kids who are really into the band - which was great- they were both incredibly sweet. Afterwards frank hooked us up so we could all unwind. I got sun burned. Sun Burned.

may 20,2002- I haven't been in a place to write down what I've been up to lately. I've been digging the isolation. I've been working in the studio doing remixes and working with the band for the last month. In between all that my cousin visited me from New Hampshire. I didn't know him at all as a kid - so its cool to hear where he and that side of the family are coming from. I also went down to see Mike Watt with Pat last week-- we met Mike after the show- which was cool. He covered 2 Madonna songs. I Wrote and recorded a new song with Pat called "making sense"..making sense don't make any sense to me.... The band will be playing the HFStival this weekend in DC- I have to go to court tomorrow--that sucks.

april 26,2002-- did a live radio interview with a New York radio station tonight. It was cool - the dj was so hyped up in that radio dj way and I was feeling more low which made the interview seem odd to me. He was real cool though and has been very supportive of our cd. Afterwards my friend Dan stopped by to hang out for a while. He just left. Its 1:30 in the morning. I'm still thinking about stuff I said last night.

april 25,2002- went to see the John Spencer Blues Explosion downtown with Nick, Pat and Terrie. The show was cool. Afterwards I hung out with Pat. He gave me a book of lyrics he had written for me to check out.

april 21,2002--2:00 am- spent the last 2 days doing a remix of Bob Mould's "Lost Zoloft" . I did a down tempo mix --low..low..the lyrics are great so it was easy for me to tap into something- especially considering where I've been.--"our latent homosex becomes so violent..beyond the rage you feel -- there's some appeal in this...someone as beautiful as you would never look at me..."

april 18,2002-- last night we went to see Bob Mould at the 9:30 club in dc. The show was great- it was him playing guitar and singing backed by video images. Afterwards we went to dinner with Bob and Kevin. I was a bit disconnected. Me Nick and Pat came back to the house. The rest of the night would be hard to accurately document here. Because everyone reads this I woun't go into detail. .... I'm going to work on a remix of one of Bob's songs this weekend .

april 15, 2002--Bob Mould came by the studio today to hang out. We talked about everything from pro-wrestling to relationships and monogamy. No conclusions were reached. He's playing a show in town on Wednesday that I'll be going to. I'm looking forward to it. Nick took a picture: Rich, Bob and Chief in the studio.

april 14,2002-- 7:30 am-- went out earlier tonight to check out some bands- had fun- afterwards I hung out in the studio with Pat and his friend Kobie. They just left.

april 13,2002-- spent this week putting together a live dvd with the band- tonight I'm going downtown with rob and pat- Pat just called he's on his way over. Give you details later.

april 7, 2002--6:30 AM--hung with Pat tonight and worked in the studio.His friend Adam stopped by--I forgot how he described it- something about Al Pacino. We recorded a reggae song that Pat had written a while ago plus we put down bass on some other new tracks. He is sweet and I had fun.

april 5,2002--- we went to see David J at nation in DC-- nice set- we hung out with David a bit afterwards. Its all good.

april 4,2002--2:50 am... I just got back from Ali's house now. I went over to pick up a video he made of our show in Miami. We hung for a bit. The video looks good.

april 3, 2002... 2:00 pm...just getting it together- hung with Pat and Rob last night . It was a ruff morning. To say the least.

march 28,2002--worked on "Nova" tonight with Pat. The mix sounds good. Its around 4:00 AM. We also worked on a new song- we figured it should sound like the nortec collective on coke. I also put up a short movie documenting our plane ride to Miami last friday. Check it.

march 27,2002- back at home. Talked to the guys on the phone today. Everyone is in a good space. I'm a bit disconnected but that's where I've been before. So its all too familiar.

march 26, 2002 -- I'm on the plan back from Miami- a little buzzed after the whole Miami thing- Its all too much house for me. We played a good set at the ascap -Stuff party yesterday. My band is amazing and I love them for being there on this ride. It was a little fucked up for me because it was outside and in the late afternnoon. The guys from Ascap were great and they took me and the band out for sushi afterwards. Frank came down to do sound- he saved the day for everyone. At dinner we talked about realtionships and compared relationships with women to relationships with men. There is a lot of similarity - but some major differences as well. The difference is that guys know sex is sex- and don't place the same importance on all that crap."Heaven loves you--clouds part for you --when you're a boy" I had a good time in Miami- and even though I want to leave- I don't much want to be at home now. In my head the trip was about much more. - too much to say now-- I'm editing it all anyway.

march 24, 2002---its 2:30 in the afternoon- We're all down in Miami for the winter music conference. Pat's still asleep- rob and dwayne are sharing a room upstairs and John is staying up the road a bit. We got in friday and have been taking it all in from there. Last night we went to see Chris Brann and Craig dj -the music was great. I got a chance to meet Chris which was cool. After that me and Pat kept going and went with the shifty boys to the Crash Party at a club called Pump. It was a homo scene- very chilled and relaxed compared to all the other clubs we'd been going to. The gay clubs always have a more chill vibe- no race-no competition. I ran into Peter Rauhofer and also met Danny Rampling- and Chris from Global Underground -- as well as a slew of other folks I can't remember. It was fun and all about the love. We got home this morning. Too wound to sleep.

march 21, 2002--2:15 AM---hung with Pat and Rob tonight- we played through the set for our Miami show next week. We listened through a ruff mix of "nova"-- it sounds great- sometimes I wonder if the people closest to me can read through the lines of what I'm writing. I 'm so into my band - its the one thing that makes me feel good about it all. Today is Taffy's birthday- she killed herself when we were both 20. I just remembered that. I remember visiting her in the mental hospital befor she died thinking the whole thing wasn't that bad. I didn't get how bad it was. The day she killed herself she had called me and asked me to come over-- I was too drunk and high and couldn't make it. To this day I still feel like I couldn't have changed what happened. She died on the bathroom floor alone. I remember my old man coming to where I worked and telling me she had killed herself. I remember seeing my dad cry for the first time. Happy birthday Taffy.

march 20,2002- had rehearsal tonight for Miami show next week. Hung with Pat and Rob after practice- we talked about lots of different stuff. We are all human. It's a comfort to know that.

march 18,2002--worked last night on mix of "Nova"..my folks came by for a visit. Nice to see them. My old man is into yoga now. If you had known him befor you would know how out there that is. He talked to me about how great it is for relieving stress and suggested I give it a try.

march 16,2002--yesterday I drove to Virginia with Pat to look at a van we might by for the band. The guy selling it lived way out there so it took us almost two hours to get there. Very rural farm land with lots of confederate flags. We listened to cds on the way-Pat made a short video which I will post later. The stars out there were so bright. I enjoyed the drive.

march 15, 2002-2:36 AM-- Rob and Pat just left. Hung out after rehersal- finished the beer- listened to the new Bob Mould record.great- played my favorite old Bowie songs-- real good. Want to cover "Jean Genie" . Feeling down even though its all good. Tomorrow me and Pat are going to Virginia to look at a van. That will be fun.

march 14,2002- 1:20 am-- Pat just left-- talent and coolness is hard to come by -I'm lucky to have found both in one guy.--- I talked to Craig on the phone-I laughed as he told me how he told the music director from Show Time that the music he had chosen was "challenging" at best ..( he said this while he was pitching our new record to him). So much for ass kissing. I'm psyched that Craig is so refreshingly honest with these industry people. I went to Bob Mould's site where he has written some incredibly sweet words about our record. Wow. I'm still on a high from that. Its nice when someone as talented as Bob gets it. Its all very humbling. I'm happy tonight.

march 12,2002---4:15 am--in my head I have a view of how things will be- tonight I was feeling that my view is wrong- I'm not talking about success and crap like that - I'm talking about the smaller circle of what's around me. I've been through this before and not sure I'm up for it again. The whole thing makes me sad.

march 10,2002-- worked in the studio with Pat till the morning- I broke out my Clash singles. Those records still turn me on. Pat sang back ups on "Nova". His voice is sweet -which surprised me considering all the cigarettes- It completes the song.

march 9,2002--worked in the studio today- tracked John on "falling off the verge"- we talked some about how far he would go on my side of the tree. Also tracked Rob on "Nova". Sounds good.

march 8, 2002--2:30 AM---rehearsed with band-- its all good- hung with Pat late- talked about how right it all is now. I'm writing this now thinking about how it will read. I know the band reads this and sometimes I edit what I'm saying so they don't think I'm falling off. Sometimes I want to fall off. I wonder how far we can push this? Next week we're going to enter "station to station" land...right now I need a smoke and louder speakers.

march 7,2002-2:00 am-woke up late-- almost missed my day- worked all day in the studio with a band I'm producing. The day dragged with a one brief highlight.

march 6,2002--4:17 AM- just finished working on "Nova" with Pat- tracked bass and hung out. Pat loved the song-which makes me glad--in a way he inspired it. Its all good tonight. sleep tight.

march 4, 2002-- I'm on the train home from NYC. I came up to meet DJ Rap- she's a big fan of my CD and she wants me to work on her new CD in some capacity- production-writing-singing-- whatever. She's really alive and fun and beautiful in person. The train is moving fast and the ride is bumpy. I called Pat to say hey- he wants to set a schedule for studio work- Tuesdays and Thursday afternoons before rehearsal - -he's got a wife and kid - so I understand... I'm drunk and its confusing and more then I can type here -now. Sometimes I think I'd give it all up to just be content.. If you're a homo there is always that point when you're left out. Its hard to explain to someone who doesn't know it first hand - It seems like it is both the most defining thing and the most mundane thing about my life. If it was just about sex it would be easy-- but its not and that's what really fucks it up. "Heaven loves you when you're a boy"--my home life is a complete mess right now...-- I could have edited this but I decided not to.

NOVA ..so we pull to the side of the road to do another line in the nova-If you could only see the way I see-then you'd know I wanted to be an astronaut--And not a messed up boy whose tongue gets tied when you see me. And your leg brushes against my skin..and you don't even notice my grin...

march 3, 2002 -- 4:00 am--worked on new song "Nova" about a ride to the cape with my friend Tom when I was 17. Its about more than that ...."So we pull to the side of the road to do another line in the Nova..." Its a downer. For some reason that trip came back to me tonight because lately I feel like I did then.

march 2, 2002--12:10 AM --hung with Pat today and worked on the track some. We talked about relationships - he told me some things about his past . I drove him home. I'm listening now. I feel oddly disconnected from parts of my life. The future looks good but you can't count on it. In some ways when its bad its OK. When its good its OK too. Right now seems hazy. I didn't count on making anymore friends at this point- - but Pat is great. He also seems familiar- which is nice. John just called to ask me what I said about relationships. He was drunk- I told them they're a losing proposition. I only believe that some of the time. The rest of the time I'm in love.

february 28, 2002- band practice- after practice messed around with the song I wrote with Pat the night before- came up with a simple lyric and melody to go with one of the parts.

february 27,2002- Pat came over tonight to work on some new music- we put down bass and guitar on "waiting on you"- sounds great. Then we worked on a new song bassed on a sample he was into. A good night.

february 25,2002-- did layout for "Funny Car" remix 12inch sleeve. Pat came by to pick up his bass cab.. two beers. nap. worked on a new song. "I think you're sexy when you put me down........"

february 24, 2002-- we played last night at The Velvet Lounge. The band sounded great. The crowd was great. Some girl had M-O-R-E-L painted on her finger nails. No one from my label showed up- which sucks- but I don't expect much from anyone these days. I'll post some pictures and video when I get it together. Craig and Dominic stayed the night and went back to nyc today. I'm a bit down today-its all up hill.

february 21,2002-- been rehearsing all week- after practice been hanging out with Pat- talking music and listening. Tonight we listened to the songs he did with the Crownsayers- he's super talented . I am happy spending time with him.

february 14,2002 -- the flu hit me hard for the past 4 days. Finally coming out of it. Should be good by tommorrow. I'll write more then. I love you too..

february 9, 2002--- I just remembered - on Thursday I met this guy Jim Fourratt- who's a writer in NYC. He asked me who has the biggest dick in the band. I'll have to check on that. "bound up insecurity - you went and changed the locks--headlight and a broken phone- I called for love-no one--"

February 8, 2002-- last night we had a record listening party in NYC . It was great. I was there with my band to meet press and all the other people who are working to make the record fly. I met Bob Mould. He was incredibly sweet. I had to say hey to so many people it was hard to talk. "Drunk and Delighted" When we drove home I realized that through it all there is only one thing I care about. Its been driving me for weeks now. Is that the way its always going to be? Do you settle for things because they are possible but continually want who you can't get? Maybe its that simple. Maybe the reason you get high is so you forget to notice that. I can't not notice it. I am happy I got to meet Bob Mould though.

february 3,2002-- worked on two new songs- "Slang" and "Waiting on you"- Its late and I've been in the studio too long."I wish someone would phone."

february 1, 2002-- went out with Rob and Pat after practice to check out the Velvet Lounge (we're playing there Sat Feb. 23). Had a good time. Talked with Pat till around 3 am about how tuff it is to maintain relationships. John called me shortly after and told me his buddy was in jail...drunk and delighted I'm sure.

january 31, 2002-- 3:20 AM-- the song is good- but I feel as if I was born too late. Unusually warm days make it hard to focus. I've been getting really sweet emails from strangers.

january 28,2002-- this weekend I got a copy of Bob Mould's new cd Modulate. Its a beautiful cd- very electronic and emotional at the same time. I've been a fan of his since Husker Du -( I always loved "could you be the one") so this was a nice surprise. I spend a lot of time looking for new good music and the best record I've heard in years shows up in the mail. Wow.

january 25 ,2002-- I've been on a manic rush for the past couple of weeks- which shows no sign of letting me off the hook. Its the way I felt when I was 17 and locked out from everything and everyone that I wanted. Its they way I felt high on speed in LA when the sun would wrap around me and everything seemed possible. I still have little desire for sleep. Caffeine and nicotine seem to hold the fort down. All the new songs I'm writing are down tempo and lost. I don't know if anyone reads this- but for the first time I'm omitting what is really going on with me. The truth is I don't want it to stop.

january 22,2002--3:00 am---I've been up for the better part of the weekend making a video for "Mean Time"-- it's a tripped out blue ride into my history,my band,and my messed up head.I'll post it for everyone within the week--Its been hard to sleep for the past 2 weeks. I've been writing a lot . Sometimes I think its not worth the trade off. The record hits the stores today. Ali came by my studio tonight- I gave him a dvd of the new video- he was really into it. Think I'll take chief for a walk.

january 17,2002-- I got an email from David J.-- he said some really great things about "the Queen of the highway " cd-

"Look out for the new solo debut CD from Deep Dish vocalist, Morel, ÔQueen Of The HighwayÕ (Yoshitoshi Recordings) I play bass on the title track and contribute a vocal sample to ÔDreaming Of LAÕ. Cat walk music for thrift store stars (You know who you are!) The emphatic push of the so fat beats (spot the Deep Dish loop!) propelling the infectious melodies through out. Fresh as a blast from an industrial negative ion generator. Some sharp lyrics too. Richard Morel is an evolved human. "...David J. --Check out David's web site: www.davidjonline.com--it's sweet.

january 15,2001-- Nick shot new band pictures for show promotion and for the yoshitoshi web site. John was doing a Calvin Klein Model thing-- really working the camera- -- Nick said he thinks John works the camera well. Rob was working a pompadour hair style. Rob kept mentioning how thick his hair was. I wonder what that's like?--Dwayne was Dwayne -- Pat said he thought he looked like he was my younger brother-- check it - Morel Band Pictures

january 12 ,2001 --3 am--tracked bass on "remember" - hung out with Pat and Rob. Somehow we got on the subject of a guy Pat used to be in a band with. Appearently this guy used to hook up with old ladies- like 70+-- wow. This guy would show up at parties with Granny on his arm. Wish I was there when that happened. Boys do keep swinging.......If you knew what really turned on the people around you - you'd find that you're not such a freak after all.

january 11,2001-its easy when you look back to see a moment, a day or a person that marked your life. Rarely are you aware of it when it happens. Its 5 A.M. and I know that things are different now. I know that the next year will be a marked one. I can't go into it just yet.

january 10,2002- had a full band rehearsal with Pat Flood- the new bass player- sounded great. John was nice to everyone. John said it was his New year's resolution to be nicer. Dwayne said that we all appreciated John's resolution. I made no New Years resolution.

january 9,2002-- got an email from Paul of The Hydrogen Rockers-- he's got a track off their new CD he wants me to remix- they did a slamming mix of "Funny Car" which will be released next month- so I'm psyched to return the favor. He said he would send me the tracks this week. Worked on "Mr. Clean"... the party twin will let you in...... I want everything that you're made of....

january 1, 2002--new years day. Chill out. Speed up. Sleep. Talked to Pat Flood- he's into playing bass. I'm glad. Worked on "Remember". Its a downer-- I need a downer. Went to the park with Chief-- " you're down in the Park again" happy new year.

december 27, 2001 -- did an interview with a British writer Paul Davies-- we talked for an hour or so. Its great when someone gets what your doing instead of being obsessed with what you're not doing. I'm obsessed with what I'm not doing. That's enough.

december 22, 2001-- I'm on the train heading back to DC. My dad came into the station to wait for the train with me. My dad is a great man but there is a distance between us. I'm sure the space is the same between most fathers and sons.My mom didn't come to the station because she hates good-byes. The train conductor just announced that the man that had purchased the 1,000,000 ticket for this new train was riding on board our train. I'm not sure what that means. Do we get a free drink?-----I'm sad now- not for one particular reason. I'm sad because time doesn't slow down for one minute. I'm sad because the number of times you will see your folks is a finite number. I'm sad for not knowing when things are good.

December 19,2001-- drove up to Massachusetts to visit my folks for the holidays-- haven't lived here in over 15 years- and I haven't visited in over 3 years. Its reassuring to see landmarks that remind me of growing up here. Memories are strange - they are so familiar but they also seem as if they have always been just memories and never really happened. I also always picture my mom looking like she did when I was a kid. Same with my Dad. Time proves to be less romantic.

december 16-17,2001-- drove to the beach with Nick. Had to pick up my Dad's car so I could drive it up to Massachusetts for him. As a kid I used to go to Rehoboth beach every summer. This was the first time I have been there in the winter. It was incredibly beautiful. It was cold and windy and the surf was a deep green. All the shops and arcades on the boardwalk were closed. Nick took some amazing pictures.The town itself was decorated for Christmas. There was Christmas music playing from loudspeakers on top of telephone poles.

december 14,2001-- started on a remix of Yoko Ono's "no bed for Beatle John". Craig thought it might be too filled with memories for her. I'm into it for that reason. Its also one of the dopest tracks she's done. ... I saw a review of my single with 16B. The critic said it was a "double slice of Heaven"....what a sweet thought and a beautiful way to express it. If they give out seconds in Heaven I want one.

december 13,2002-- went downtown with Rob to check out a bass player (Pat Flood) in a band called papashake. He sounded great. We hung out and talked for a while-- he's a talker in the grand Irish tradition. Nice guy. He looks like he should be living in Boston ..my old town. I gave him a copy of "Queen of the Highway " to check out. We'll see what comes of it.

december 12, 2001--I went with Nick to cut down a Christmas tree. I think the whole experience was supposed to be like the Waltons-- but we got there late so we wound up buying a tree that had already been cut. I'm not much of an outdoors man anyway- so I was fine with that. The tree is huge-- It looked way smaller outside. What do you think Andy Warhol's Christmas tree looked like.

december 11,2001-- designed a new morel poster to ship with the CD (which believe it or not will ship in January..) also finished Lydia Rhodes "Dreams" remix.

december 9,2001-- my managers (Craig and Dominic) are also representing Yoko Ono-- Craig LOVES Yoko- he has been a fan of hers for ever- so he is quite thrilled about all this. (Me and Craig both have Yoko's Box set-- so I guess we are both fans) Anyway .. Craig and Dominic went out with Yoko on Saturday to here her new record played out by Danny Teneglia and Peter Rauhofer-- Craig called me on sunday completely blown away by the whole experience-- I couldn't be happier for him. I told him to let her know that I wrote "Over"(from Queen of the Highway) about John's murder.

december 6, 2001- been getting the show together with my band- we're sounding good- not sure if the new bass player is going to be able to make the commitment. Also started working on a remix of Lydia Rhodes "Dreams". Funky Electronic music. Nothing like Stevie Nicks....

decemember 5, 2001-- did an interview with Bill Forman from Pulse magazine. He asked me what music I'm into now and I had to pause. Most of the records I'm listening to now are from the 70s and 80s-- I'm not really speeding to that much new music- I love some of the records I'm hearing at clubs but those never work at home. I also like that new Sugar Ray single- its young-dumb--well you know the rest.

november 23, 2001---an old friend of mine Laura came down from New York with her boy friend Marty Torgoff-- he's an Elvis expert and has written a book (Elvis 56)and made a documentary (Love me Tender) on the king. I had visited Graceland around 10 years ago with Laura - she is also a huge Elvis fan. I think Elvis is good looking. We all went to dinner and had a great time. Our table was next to Wolf Blitzer and Cookie Roberts' table. Washington politics as usual. I had pork chops and pasta with garlic and cheese.

novemeber 22, 2001- spent thanksgiving with my folks and my cousins. Hadn't seen my cousins for years. Since it was mostly my cousins' familily I didn't have to deal with the usual holiday family stuff. I had fun. My cousin Paul's son David is 13 -- we talked about music- he's very into R&B-- he gets that from his old man.

november 16, 2001---did an interview today with Genre magazine.The guy who did the interview grew up in the town next to where I grew up. We talked about how great radio was when we were kids. That was a long time ago. What's on the radio now? I heard one song I liked by a group called BRMC-- it was like old Iggy Pop- I'm also into the New Order record. I'm not really feeling much else today. I wish someone would make a record that you can't play loud enough. Something like "Station To Station" or "Sandinista" or "The Queen Is Dead". Something that makes you feel cool when its on.

november 9, 2001 pm---I'm on the train heading back to DC. The first hour of the ride I spent standing because the train was filled with Firemen returning home from a memorial service in NYC. They ride for free . I spoke with a fireman from Rockville who was standing with me in the food car. I shook his hand and thanked him. He was incredibly sweet. There really are good guys. I know this now for sure.

november 9, 2001-- I just got in from the Global Underground party. Its 4:30 AM. I'll start at the beginning. I hooked up with Craig around 5 p.m.. I did an interview with a guy from "Ghetto Blaster" Magazine. He was real sweet. We spent a lot of time talking about the Clash-- and how ahead of the curve they were. After the interview I hooked up with Craig, Dominic, and Michael and headed over to the Global Underground party. I met Hobey Echlin. Hobey wrote the review of "The Queen Of The Highway" that's in this weeks Village Voice. Hobey spoke with a certain beat and meter which made him immediately intriguing. His language was a mix of a skate punk meets William Burruoghs.Next time I'm in Manhattan I'd like to hook up with Mr. Echlin for a drink and some talk. I also got to hang with Sioux and Cameron from Formula. PR guys are always good at conversation. Deep Dish Dj'd the event.

november 8, 2001-- A.M. --finished up early this morning with Eddie Amador on his new record. Slept for a few hours. Now I'm on the train headed for NYC. The train is crowded. I'm tired- it's gonna be a long night. I'm going to New York to do press for "The Queen of the Highway " and go to the Deep Dish Global Underground party.

november 6,2001- finished up Mars Carter remix for Yoshitoshi. Nick took pictures of me in the studio for the Mixer Magazine interview. Cigar in hand --"Daddy Ghetto Fabulous".

october 27,2001--here's a new picture taken by David Armstrong. I'm getting his band pictures transferred and will post them soon.Will be doing an interview with mixer next week . Nick will be doing more pictures for that story. Going to my friend Dan's b-day party tonight in Baltimore.

october 23,2001- haven't done this in a month. here's a a rundown: been doing lots of interviews for the "Queen of the Highway" cd. Been working with the band on the live show. We added Junee on bass- he's a buddy of Dwaynes and he plays the mean low funky bass that you need in your life.We'll be out on the road next year. Saw "Meet the Parents" on cable. Too funny. Been writing some tracks and songs to do as a side project with other singers and musicians.I'll call it "The Soft-Core Band". Today I'm going downtown to work with Deep Dish on a Madonna remix "Impressive Instance". Chuck from Yoshi called and said the proofs for the cd artwork are down at the office- so I'll also check that out.

september 27, 2001-- got an e-mail from my cousin Richard. Never knew him growing up. His father was my dad's brother. I met him at his dad's funeral last year. We share the same name but we really know very little about each other. He sent me an email to see if everything was cool wear I am in DC in relation to the Pentagon. Everything is all right.

september 26,2001--worked on music- first time since the attack. I'm not up for writing a song that's actually about what happened here. Anything would seem trite. John is going to move into the House that Tim lives in. Some old queen owns the place. John let him touch his ass so his rent would only be $450/ month. That was easy.

september 25,2001-- John called because he doesn't want Kerry ( his wife that he's in the middle of getting a bad divorce from) to use the morelworld e-mail. I had told her before it was fine. I won't get in the middle of that mess. Oscar Wilde was so right on. It seems that people do hurt the ones they love. Its amazing the anger between two people who wanted to spend their entire lives together. I hope I never get there.

september 24, 2001--- took David to the train station early morning. Took the back way home to avoid traffic. Dealt with business crap most of the day.

september 23,2001-- picked up David Armstrong to do photo shoot of the band. Nick took pictures as well. I was wearing my best Teddy Roosevelt drag. David wants to shoot Dwayne for "Homeboys and Hustlers " book. Dwayne is psyched to do it. Dwayne looks amazing and makes a great subject. I'll post the pics soon. That night went to dinner with David and Nick.

september 21, 2001--did interview with billboard magazine- was supposed to go to nyc to do interviews but because of the attack I've been doing most over of the phone. Spoke with my friend Dan-- he's ready to enlist in the army. He's 39 years old with about a week left to make the 40 year old cut off. I agree with him--although I'd be left out for another reason. Dan thinks Limp biscuit , Eminem, and all the tough guys hip-hoppers and rock n' rollers should enlist the same way William Holden, Jimmy Stewart and all the big stars of the 40's did for WWII.

september 19,2001---began working out live show ideas. I Will have a full band rehersal tomorrow- need to put together what we'll be doing. Craig mentioned doing some club dates - Lately I feel like playing only down tempo music- I think its because of the past week. Not feeling the club vibe. Not feeling any vibe.

september 17,2001-- did interview with Brion from BPM magazine. He called from NYC - We talked about my record.He really gets it. We also talked about how our world is now different.

september 16, 2001-- went to the beach to see my folks. After the past week it was very comforting to be around my mom and dad.

september 15, 2001-- hooked up with Sharam and Bridget . Went to a pub in DC for dinner. American flags every where. Worked on Global cd.

september 14,2001---went to a candle light vigil in DC. I was with Nick, Sam, Ron and Gianene. It was fun being with friends--after the past three days of stress. The Lincoln Memorial was closed to the public.

september 13, 2001--finally I got through and was able to talk to my friends in NYC. Everyone in my immediate circle is safe. It seems as if everyone wants to find a reason for this terrorists attack. Reasons like "Karma" and "God". As if we somehow deserved this for past wrongs. I don't see it like that. "Karma" is the liberal hippie way of being judgmental-- a way to blame the victim and still be forgiving. What a load of crap.

september 12 , 2001---3:00 AM-- drove around Washington DC . I wanted to see the White House . I thought that if I saw the White House I would feel safe. I wasn't allowed to get close enough to see it. It was like a war zone- hummers ,machine guns, military men on every corner. Went home and watched TV news.

september 11,2001----11:00AM- I woke up I turned on the TV . I slowly realized it was true. Two jet airliners had crashed into the world trade center and a third into to the pentagon. Its hard to explain this feeling of loss. I called Craig in NYC- he was fine but obviously shaken. He told me to call back in 5 minutes but I was unable to get a call through. My dad called. He was angry and said that for him this was excactly what the attack on Pearl Harbour was like when he was a young man. The DC news said for no people to drive into the city and that all government offices would be closing. My words tonight cannot express the way it feels here in America.

september 9,2001-- finished dub mix of Ananda Project "Breaking Down" . Did a photo shoot with Nick . The pictures are "Ghetto Fabulous".. check it.

september 7,2001--worked on dub mix of Ananda Project "Breaking Down"-- very Paris disco sounding. Mid-way through the mix I got into a whole different vibe and wrote a new song called "Mr. Clean". Stayed up untill morning recording and writing. "You're much to young, for me to even show up on your radar--I'm much too old, but still I need to know what you are made of... you'll fall apart with Mr. Clean......"

september 6, 2001-- finished artwork for "Queen of The Highway" cd. Went downtown to Yoshitoshi office to give it to Chuck. Met John in Dupont Circle. First time I've seen him since he split with Kerry. He seemed free. He looked real good and I noticed that the sweet boys of Dupont were cruising him. John was un aware. We went back to the place where he is staying while he gets things sorted out. John's friend Tim lives there as well. Appearently some old gay guy owns the house and gives them a good deal on rent. John said that he and Tim walk around the house in their underwear to keep the rent down. Right now John pays no rent. I guess he looks pretty good in his underwear. I'll get a picture and post it here later.

Deep Dish were supposed to go to Greece-- some how their plane got canceled and they called me at 11:00 PM. How did this happen?? Just when I thought they where out of town --- I'm at the studio now writing this. Ali just played me a dope Crystal Method mix by John Creamer. When I finish this I will be making myself a copy of it. It is that good.........

september 5 ,2001 --PM-- back to Deep Dish studio to work on Global Underground CD. It is never ending. They decide to put "Cabaret Part 1" as the last song on CD one. Sharam wanted me to do a vox intro telling the people that it was a "BANG FOR YOUR BUCKS TRACK"--Ali video taped our discussion and we used the audio from the video to start the track instead. It was 6:00 am and everything was funny. It still is now. Sharam never gives in. I can deal with that. At least you know where you stand.

september 5,2001--AM-- got home at 8:00 am after working all night. Can't crash right away-- play Frisbee with Chief. Chief is my main man-- my dog and my best friend. I'll put a picture up when I have a chance to sleep and eat.

september 4,2001--back to deep dish studios for Global Underground recording. Late night --no sleep. Get a call from Craig in LA- asking if I finished artwork for Queen of the Highway CD. Nope. I'll pull it together in-between all the rest.

September 3,2001--- labor day --zone out. Fresh fish. Sex. Sleep.

september 1& 2, 2001 -- worked at deep dish studio in Georgetown recording the global underground CD. Was there until Sunday morning. Crashed for a few hours then went to a flea market downtown with Nick. I bought Sharam a vintage Steve Mcqueen movie poster. Nick bought a W.W.II bullet lamp and 5 nature books from the 20's with hand painted illustrations. Went back to deep dish studios for a couple hours. Sunday night me and Nick went out with Ali and Jenn (hip-huggers) for dinner and then drinks at some new club in DC. Ali and Jenn drank apple martinis (apparently Robert Deniro drinks these). Feeling spaced out-- .

august 31, 2001-- worked on artwork for "Queen Of The Highway" CD. Using some of the Armstrong pics -plus some pics that Nick took. Video messages from Doug in ST. Louis----BD..Went out late and stayed out.

august 30,2001--AM-- got film pictures from photo shoot this morning. Some great pics. May use some for the cd booklet-Craig sent me an e-mail that included some people I should thank on the cd booklet. The problem with "thanks" on records is the only person who notices is the person you leave off. Last night I worked on a house jam-- Sharam had asked if I'd like to do a mix of a PQM track- this might be a cool direction for it.

august 29,2001--posted pictures from the photo shoot sunday with David. John called last night and said that he and Kerry are splitting up. Thats a drag. Worked on artwork for CD. Deadline is friday.

august 28, 2001-- spoke to Craig. Posted some of the pics from the shoot . Craig wants to keep the book that David Armstrong's manager sent over for him last week. I'll tell David.

august 27, 2001-- Took David to the train station. Crashed the rest of the day.

august 26, 2001-- Did photo shoot all day with David Armstrong. Nick took pictures of us while David was taking pictures. David felt that these pictures where the best of the day... I'll post the pics later. It was great hanging with David- I don't get the chance to hook up with him often enough. He says he is going to get his Funeral Directors license. Imagine those pictures. I also took pictures of David to post on line.

august 25,2001-- going to pick up David Armstrong at 5:00 Union Station. Tomorrow we'll do a photo shoot for press. Haven't seen David in a while- looking foward to hanging out.

august 24,2001-- spoke to Craig today. His buddy David who wrote our bio was there. Got a chance to talk on the phone with him. I was charmed by his british manor and inflection. We talked about music - he sugested I check out Scott Walker- and the Walker Brothers. Will do . Would like to hook up in personwith David befor he returns to the UK. Talked to Craig again at night-- he was a bit stressed but eager to discuss his love of YOKO-----

august 23 ,2001--wrote new song called "Swear". a hip-hop-chugger with fucked up words about amphetamines , sex, and and loss. Want Rob to add drums to the chorus to push it over the top-- It fits into my "Tennessee Violet" idea of loneliness and loss through the 21st century optical cable. "Slamming meth amphetamine like a chemical pig on a christmas tree -you go -ooo-ooo- baby I'm high. I got a message from outer space-said the cowboy's gone - I'm gonna take his place- ooo-ooo- daddy don't cry....."

august 21,2001--worked at Georgetown studio with Sharam on Global Underground Mix cd. Its going to open with "Driving to Heaven" the track I did with 16B. Sharam really loves the song and told me it reminds him of his dad who recently died. That was the sweetest thing anyone has said about a song I wrote.